Recovery feels so good.. if it is not only a mear illusion.

Hey guys. Got the feeling to write again. hahahaa

I understand now that philosophy is really quite peculiar. It made me think more about my life, and the purposes within it. The thirst to want to know more really dwells in me. I had practiced some of the knowledge in real life, and guess what, it works!

Today I'm just gonna discuss some of the mind-altering methods I learned. One of them is= the magic of smiling :).

Wait! Don't go like, "Pffff! What's this bullshit?". I'm not kid around, and just gonna say that it's true. Want proof?

First, when you're feeling down, try to smile. Doesn't it feel quite better when you smile? Well, the body works in mysterious ways (The one that created body itself was God, and don't argue with me that God's ways are sometimes quite mysterious either). If you were to smile, you could actually feel good. The body remembers your pattern of actions, and well, when is the most likely time for you to smile? When you FEEL good, right?

So, by smiling, we actually make our self feel a lot better. It's like mending the wound from inside. Peculiar, but it works. How our body works is very, very interesting. Actually, for me, learning this also build my religious values. I am able to admire how wonderful God's creation, thus worshiping Him more.

Ah my Lord, what great creation have you made that is I.

Impenetrable Barrier

Hi guys. It seems I have been caught with my assignments and stuffs. It really is a busy life.

I just want to say a couple of stuff here.

Do you know the four emotions? It is based on bodily humor, e.g. blood, bile, etc. There are Sanguine, Melancholic, Choleric,Phlegmatic. Sanguine is the people person, they work great in society. Melancholic is the sensitive type, they are very sensitive and emotional. Choleric is the leadership type, which sometimes could act very bossy. Phlegmatic is the "natural" type, yet mysterious and kinda make a barrier so that not everyone can get to know them better.

So, what am I? I guess I could describe myself as the Phlegmatic-Melancholic type, yet Phlegmatic dominates more. That's why it's weird, considering Phlegmatic and Melancholic has different personalities.

Some people that haven't gotten in touch with me for a long time could say I have changed. Yet, they do not know what my real personality is. Even I have problems deciphering it. That's why, if I asked someone by how have I changed, they also have problems to set it into words.

I could say that I am complex. Not everyone can understand me. That's why, sometimes they just got bounced back from my barrier. I have multiple layers of Barriers. People who have hard time to get through, often given up on trying. However, true friend never give up.

I guess this post is very confusing to read. This post represent how my mind's going through right now, confused and quite tired.

I will try at my very best to keep my friendship. However, if they have already given up, I could always try harder next time. Maybe it's my fault my Barrier's impenetrable.

Plus minus 3 jam menuju hari H

Well, kira" ada 3 jam menuju hari H.

hari H apa? Ultah gw tuh.... hwhwhw....

Masi bingung mau ngapain/gimana mau nerima ini. I mean, I'm 17 now. Greater oppurtinity followed by much greater responsibility. Banyak yang ngomong "Ciee yang ultah besok!", but I'm not sure how to answer. Do I look forward to it? Well, let's see.

Ini bakal menjadi ultah gw pertama kali yang ko" gw gak ada semua. FYI, i have 3 elder brothers. The fact that they are all abroad makes me draw a line which I have to accomplish too. It's something I have to accomplish.

Makanya, ultah ini ngingetin gw atas tanggung jawab gw, juga sama semua yang gw alamin dalam '08. Memang, tahun yang satu ini betul" membuat IMPACT sama gw. Yah, gw jadi sdikit merenung apa aja yang telah membuat gw berubah. Dan dari waktu itu juga membuat gw jadi ada perspektif baru ttg hidup.

Yah, gw sendiri masih bingung gw pengen apa. Jujur aja, gw expect nothing (kecuali ada yg mw beliin laptop? Hehehe). Tapi, gw betul" respect apa aja yang diberikan ^^)

well, sampe sini dulu deh. Masi mau merenung mau ngapain. hehehe

God Bless U!
Yours sincerely

Marco~

Catch Up.

First of all, Merry Christmas & Happy New Year, terkhusus Selamat Tahun Barong Hijriah bagi yg merayakan XD

Well, so sorry gw gak update ini blog, soalnya kesibukan maen & tidur ^^)

Sekolah dah masuk, another chapter of my life has begun. Tahun ini betul" berbeda dari tahun lalu. Temen baru, temen lama, pelajaran baru, guru baru (banyak guru yang ganti), dan situasi & kesempatan yang baru, dilengkapi tanggung jawab baru.

Yah, sampai saat ini sekolah masi lumayan, belom ada yang bener" nyebelin. Gw harap sekolah gak terlalu menyita hidup gw yang "tranquilizing" ini =P.

Banyak rencana baru yang pengen gw raih. salah satunya adalah work out! Moga" aja bantal yang gw bawa tiap hari bisa hilang :D (Gonna miss it though~)

Mixed emotions.. and CHANGE

Argh....hhhh....yeeee....laaaahhh....grrrr.....ckckck.....yey^^)


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Apaan tuh?


Yah, itulah yang gw rasain sekarang... semua rasa bercampur dalam diri....

I don't know who I am or what I stand for anymore.

Emptiness. Akhir" ini koq gw feeling empty banget yah? Kayak saking banyak emosiong yg ada di diri gw, ampe jd kosong (lho?)

Gw juga merasa.. diri gw tuh berubah.. gara" banyak bgt hal yang gw alamin di tahun 2008 yang, kalo gw yang dulu ngeliat, gw bakal bilang "ini kan bukan gw"
Tapi, yah itu yang gw rasakan sekarang. Memang, pengalaman itu betul" menyusun kepribadian kita. Sekarang, hal ini membuat benerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbenerbener bingung. dan itu pula yang membuat gw merasa kosong.

"Jadi, gw sapa dong?"

A Dull Day.

It's been quite a while this vacation..

Somehow I feel empty, like there's something MISSING.

Ah right, a couple of going outs should do the trick. It's been a dull day, being in my house all the time. Wish I could go, yet I haven't done my driving lessons. I wanted to go out, yet I feel sleepy.

This is quite a case of=
DILEMMA.

Kenapa yah orang gak bisa bikin keputusan? Kenapa banyak, orang, tidak bisa membuat keputusan di saat yang genting? Well, I have put some thought to it and I'd like to share my opinion.

Dilemma itu disebabkan orangnya plin-plan. Orangnya emang sifatnya gitu, gak bisa buat keputusan dan, seringkali gak bisa pilih. Tipe orang kayak gini jangan diajakin belanja baju, karena buntut"nya kita yang bakal milihin baju buat dia. Inilah tipe dilemma yang paling dalam, sampai membentuk personality seseorang.

Consequences. Orang gak bisa membuat keputusan karena tidak siap/takut atas konsekuensi yang diterimanya. "You gain some, you lose some". Akibatnya, mereka tak bisa membuat keputusan yang tepat di saat yang tepat.

Think first, do later. Nah, kesannya it's not a problem, memang bukan masalah at first. Tapi, kalo udah parah, saking kebanyakan mikirnya orang seperti ini belum siap mengambil keputusan dan melakukannya. Orang ini terlalu banyak mikir, dan apa yang dipikirkan sebenarnya mungkin udah gak relevan dari masalah yang dihadapinya.

Nah, tipe apakah kamu?

Kalo gw, gw masuk ke think first, do later (eventhough sometimes I do crazy things that I do not think first ^^). Ini betul" gw rasakan kalo gw lg ngerjain ulangan. Terutama, ulangan biologi. Kadang" kalo udah mikir, tuh bisa jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh banget, sampe" dah gak nyambung dari pertanyaannya. It's because I don't want to have any mistakes, so

I often connect the subject to other subject.

Ini membuat ulangan yang harusnya gw dah selesai dalam 15 menit, selesai dalam 45 menit =D. Dan, seringkali setelah gw mikir sejauh itu masih juga ada yang salah! Jadi kesal sendiri kan, kalo ternyata yang udah bener malah diganti.

Knowledge is something. You can't answer a question if you don't have enough knowledge in it, yet you can have difficulty answering it if you have TOO MUCH KNOWLEDGE.

Karena kita tahu kebanyakan, kita seringkali bingung mau pakai yang mana (atau bahasa kerennya, kita tak tahu kapan menggunakan pengetahuan kita). This could backfire easily, as one's way of thinking is different than others. Guru juga seharusnya tidak memaksakan kehendaknya, yang dapat membunuh kreatifitas murid.

Tapi, bukan berarti kita tidak boleh kebanyakan pengetahuan. Kalo gak, semua orang bakal males blajar dong? Terus, gimana caranya biar kita gak bingung ngejawab pertanyaan?
Well, gw yang pernah jawab soal" olimpiade yang bikin otak muter sampe delapan keliling=

KNOWLEDGE is the books, which you keep in a library of your MIND. WISDOM is needed to pick the specific book needed to solve a problem, and LOGIC opens the specific page.

Jadi, jangan menyerah untuk belajar! Karena belajar memperkaya setiap hal, dan sesungguhnya tidak ada yang sia-sia dalam belajar. Menang-kalah hanya julukan, tapi pengetahuan gak bisa dicabut dari dirimu!


Yours sincerely,

Marco Christian Michael

So... Say it ain't so....

Well, baru aja selesai ulangan umum...

RESULTS=
Thursday
Biologi= Hehehe ^^)
BI= Hhhh.... Tewas X_X

Friday
Fisika=So-so ~_~
English=Hehehe ^^)

Tuesday
Mat=Cacad =(
sejarah=" Hhhh..."

Wednesday
kimia= Hehehe ^^)
tik=Hehehe ^^)

Thursday (which is today)
Mandarin= Consists of "HSK" which is like a toefl yet for mandarin language= Tewas X_X
Ulangan umum= Hehehe ^^)
pkn= Hehehe ^^)


nilai=
Hehehe ^^)=85-100
so-so ~_~=" 65-85
Cacad =( = 55-70
Hhhh... Tewas X_X = 0-70


Yah, memang ulangan umum belum dibagi, tapi yah feeling gw sih nilai gw segitu...

Sudah, lupakan saja ulangan umum, yang berlalu biarlah berlalu!


So, holiday season is coming! And, best of all, school break is also here! Gak kerasa udah mau 1 tahun lagi lewat... Time sure goes by quickly....
Well, a lot has happened to me this past year.... Everything that I'm proud of, and that I wished never happened. My task before new year=

"FINISH THE UNFINISHED BUSINESS WITH MY FRIENDS"

Hope that I succeed. Or something like that.
It seems time has got the best of me. I'll write soon again, about this.
Till, then, enjoy the holiday!

Happy holidays,
Yours sincerely,

Marco Christian Michael