Express.

People, it's been quite a long time since I wrote last time. I have been busied by school, of course, as you may all have known that my national exams have been fast-forwarded to next week! School is not that hard, but teaching friends is (gosh I really hope none of my friends will read this hehe. They're gonna bully me hard).

I find life very inspiring these days. Even though I'm at the point of boredom in my school, to the extent of not studying for all this damned try outs (it's like a simulation for the national exams), I'm being drifted to find my true self. I'm being enriched everyday, by observing the characteristics and behaviors of my friends. Gosh, I'm glad to have such broad friends. Everyone is unique in their own weird and quirky ways to express. That made me realize, how do I express myself?

I can say I have very different way of thinking than others. While some may say I'm imaginative and full of crap, some have admired on my point of view regarding difficult problems or situations. Many just don't understand how I think and condemn me. Hey, it's okay since how people think usually don't concern me, but it sometimes affect me. Before I realized it this social crisis has constrained me, entangling me into the typical road of boredom. I respect people's opinion, of course, but for criticism, it's me who decide and filter those thoughts. I don't want people to shape who I am. I am borderless, and I don't want people to label me and put me in a specific box, without realizing my true potential.

Perhaps that's what makes me more tolerant to others. I don't condemn others (except one) and i always have, even faint, hope for individuals who society hates. I feel empathy on them, and want to help them, if possible. This had proved to bite me in the back, because for some reason people find it satisfying to condemn people who don't hate the person being condemned by society. What's worse was that, they act nicely when talking to you, but show their true nature behind your back. I just want to say: I'm NOT that stupid.

Leaving things aside, I feel like I've been inspired each day of my life. I found out that life is a learning process. No one is smart enough to stop learning. We stopped learning when we die, and until then we're gonna be faced with problems and conflicts on a daily basis. On the bright side, we already know that God had told us He would never test us beyond our capabilities. So, why afraid of problems? Think of it as challenges, and in the end, you're bound to win! And the best thing is, you have The best supporter, The One who controls the universe and your life, God Jesus Christ Himself :D.