Recovery feels so good.. if it is not only a mear illusion.

Hey guys. Got the feeling to write again. hahahaa

I understand now that philosophy is really quite peculiar. It made me think more about my life, and the purposes within it. The thirst to want to know more really dwells in me. I had practiced some of the knowledge in real life, and guess what, it works!

Today I'm just gonna discuss some of the mind-altering methods I learned. One of them is= the magic of smiling :).

Wait! Don't go like, "Pffff! What's this bullshit?". I'm not kid around, and just gonna say that it's true. Want proof?

First, when you're feeling down, try to smile. Doesn't it feel quite better when you smile? Well, the body works in mysterious ways (The one that created body itself was God, and don't argue with me that God's ways are sometimes quite mysterious either). If you were to smile, you could actually feel good. The body remembers your pattern of actions, and well, when is the most likely time for you to smile? When you FEEL good, right?

So, by smiling, we actually make our self feel a lot better. It's like mending the wound from inside. Peculiar, but it works. How our body works is very, very interesting. Actually, for me, learning this also build my religious values. I am able to admire how wonderful God's creation, thus worshiping Him more.

Ah my Lord, what great creation have you made that is I.

Impenetrable Barrier

Hi guys. It seems I have been caught with my assignments and stuffs. It really is a busy life.

I just want to say a couple of stuff here.

Do you know the four emotions? It is based on bodily humor, e.g. blood, bile, etc. There are Sanguine, Melancholic, Choleric,Phlegmatic. Sanguine is the people person, they work great in society. Melancholic is the sensitive type, they are very sensitive and emotional. Choleric is the leadership type, which sometimes could act very bossy. Phlegmatic is the "natural" type, yet mysterious and kinda make a barrier so that not everyone can get to know them better.

So, what am I? I guess I could describe myself as the Phlegmatic-Melancholic type, yet Phlegmatic dominates more. That's why it's weird, considering Phlegmatic and Melancholic has different personalities.

Some people that haven't gotten in touch with me for a long time could say I have changed. Yet, they do not know what my real personality is. Even I have problems deciphering it. That's why, if I asked someone by how have I changed, they also have problems to set it into words.

I could say that I am complex. Not everyone can understand me. That's why, sometimes they just got bounced back from my barrier. I have multiple layers of Barriers. People who have hard time to get through, often given up on trying. However, true friend never give up.

I guess this post is very confusing to read. This post represent how my mind's going through right now, confused and quite tired.

I will try at my very best to keep my friendship. However, if they have already given up, I could always try harder next time. Maybe it's my fault my Barrier's impenetrable.