Express.

People, it's been quite a long time since I wrote last time. I have been busied by school, of course, as you may all have known that my national exams have been fast-forwarded to next week! School is not that hard, but teaching friends is (gosh I really hope none of my friends will read this hehe. They're gonna bully me hard).

I find life very inspiring these days. Even though I'm at the point of boredom in my school, to the extent of not studying for all this damned try outs (it's like a simulation for the national exams), I'm being drifted to find my true self. I'm being enriched everyday, by observing the characteristics and behaviors of my friends. Gosh, I'm glad to have such broad friends. Everyone is unique in their own weird and quirky ways to express. That made me realize, how do I express myself?

I can say I have very different way of thinking than others. While some may say I'm imaginative and full of crap, some have admired on my point of view regarding difficult problems or situations. Many just don't understand how I think and condemn me. Hey, it's okay since how people think usually don't concern me, but it sometimes affect me. Before I realized it this social crisis has constrained me, entangling me into the typical road of boredom. I respect people's opinion, of course, but for criticism, it's me who decide and filter those thoughts. I don't want people to shape who I am. I am borderless, and I don't want people to label me and put me in a specific box, without realizing my true potential.

Perhaps that's what makes me more tolerant to others. I don't condemn others (except one) and i always have, even faint, hope for individuals who society hates. I feel empathy on them, and want to help them, if possible. This had proved to bite me in the back, because for some reason people find it satisfying to condemn people who don't hate the person being condemned by society. What's worse was that, they act nicely when talking to you, but show their true nature behind your back. I just want to say: I'm NOT that stupid.

Leaving things aside, I feel like I've been inspired each day of my life. I found out that life is a learning process. No one is smart enough to stop learning. We stopped learning when we die, and until then we're gonna be faced with problems and conflicts on a daily basis. On the bright side, we already know that God had told us He would never test us beyond our capabilities. So, why afraid of problems? Think of it as challenges, and in the end, you're bound to win! And the best thing is, you have The best supporter, The One who controls the universe and your life, God Jesus Christ Himself :D.

A quick note

Hello tranq-ers. I'm sure you guys are back to school right?

Sorry that I haven't posted in a really long time, considering all the time spent was on surviving in Smak5. I really want to get myself used to blogging, but I like microblogging more now. So add me at twitter: m4rk_ch

Well, I am gonna continue this blog, hopefully at least on a weakly manner. The final exams are coming nearer now and I have to prepare, so I hope I have some time to manage this blog so it doesn't get dull and boring.

Oh yeah, when I was pretty bored the other day, I suddenly got struck with an odd story! I wrote it in english, and it is still ongoing, but if I have time I will gladly post it chapter by chapter on this blog. I haven't even have a title or the main character's name, but I'm in the process of making it :D

Well, that's all I guess. My report is not very satisfying, but it's not disappointing either.
Hope I can write again soon, bye!

P.S.: I would put "Novel" label for the novel story :D

Holiday Hopeful!

'sup Tranq-ers?

Yeah, school's on a holiday break! Finally, a time of peace and ease of mind, as I don't have to study everyday anymore :P. The holiday's quite long, just about 12 days from now of pure relaxing and loafing around!!!

Well, I've got a lot to do this holiday, and I'll make sure I'll use every minute of it for fun! I'm gonna start with sports tomorrow, and just let my friends take me elsewhere ~_~
I have a very important task to make this holiday, that's trying to meet someone i haven't made in person before. Hope that it'll all go smoothly, and i will make an evenly important decision then.

That's all I can say now. School's out, enjoy it!

God Bless You!

New Account, Updates

Hey Tranq-ers.

Guess what, I have a google account now! I was so confused on how to export this blog to my gmail account, but then i decided to just add another author. Damn, that was simple.

Well, it's been a while since I last updated this blog. And it strikes as funny to me that I am almost always update my blog when I have an exam tomorrow. Well, can't deny that since SMAK 5 has its students take exams every day. Without Tuesday if we're lucky. So, it's very hard for me to keep updating as I'm not that extroverted anyways. Nevertheless, I'll keep my spirits up to write new posts :D

So, I'm a high school senior now. It's so fun being the top of the hierarchy! I mean, not to bully all those juniors, but you get that wow-he's-older-than-me-so-i-haveta-respect-him vibe. That's great! But the exams aren't. I mean, even Faraday would be pissed off if he had to do Chemistry exams every week!

Well, I wouldn't go on complaining coz it wouldn't be interesting for you guys to read rite? I've got math exam tomorrow, so I hope I'll get perfect marks! Oh, and we're going to have a school choir competition next wednesday. Hope we can synchronize our voices in time for the competition! Let us be the winner! God bless you all!

Going to Sydney!

Hello tranq-ers. It seems it have been quite some time since i last wrote on this blog.
Well, you have to blame my laziness for that, and also because i dunno what to write anyway.

So, i passed the eleventh grade. Yay. NOT. Time is quickly catching up on me, and decisions have to be made immediately. I want everything to be simple and stagnant, but life sometimes is a bitch.

Now is a crossroad. I am currently confused whether to study abroad or continue in Penabur. It have it's own advantages to study abroad, like living alone and refresh my adventurous sense, but i want to be in Penabur to stay with my friends. To put it simply, the current situation is like a bird at its first time flight off its nest. Whatever decision i made, it will definitely have an impact in my social life.

I may not be able to see my friends again. When I came back to Jakarta from studying abroad, I'm afraid they'll probably be sombong and ignorant. I don't want to leave my friends, at least not now. But, we all must end up getting separated in order to reach our dreams, right?

So, always dillema inside my mind. Hate it, love it, ignore it, whatever it is, it will come out eventually.

oh yeah, i'm planning to go to Sydney this 5th July. If all goes well, I'll be able to see the campus I'm going to study next October :D

The essence of mind-reading ~_~

Hey Tranq-ers. Kebetulan lagi gak ada kerjaan (or activity whatsoever)
So i'm gonna write XD

I am going to talk about mind reading. It's just an activity i like to do if I don't know something about people, coz they don't wanna talk about it. But, the truth is, I could already know what they're thinking about. Interesting, eh?

Well, there are many ways to interpret how you read other people's minds. But, I believe, in my own experience, that many things affect how I read people's mind, which is:

1. You have to get to know the person you're talking to first. If you know his/her characteristics first, it's easier for you to interpret his/her mind behaviour, resulting in, well, you could predict what they're thinking!
2. This kind of mind reading is quite special, not everybody can do it in my experience, and it IS NOT (baca: TIDAK) 100% accurate, so there is a possibility that what you're reading IS NOT what the truth.
3. Mind-reading is about perception, so if you don't have quite high *feeling* skills, well, you can't.
4. Mind reading is connected to Clairvoyance.

So, what is Clairvoyance. Clairvoyance (from 17th century French with clair meaning "clear" and voyance meaning "visibility") is the apparent ability to gain information about an object, person, location or physical event through means other than the known human senses a form of extra-sensory perception. A person said to have the ability of clairvoyance is referred to as a clairvoyant ("one who sees clear").

You have to know, that mind reading is highly contradictional. Some people say that mind reading is just taking guesses, while some really believe the potential of mind reading. I, for one, am both scientific and skeptical. I believe that the brain is a very mysterious organ, in which scientist haven't yet found it's full potential.

There are many ways on how you draw information from people, object, and else. There are:

Clairsentience (feeling/touching)

In the field of parapsychology, clairsentience is a form of extra-sensory perception wherein a person acquires psychic knowledge primarily by means of feeling. The word is from the French clair, “clear,” + sentience, “feeling,” and is ultimately derived from the Latin clarus, “clear,” + sentiens, derived from sentire, “to feel”.

In addition to parapsychology, the term also plays a role in some religions. For example: clairsentience is one of the six human special functions mentioned or recorded in Buddhism. It is an ability that can be obtained at advanced meditation level. Generally the term refers to a person who can feel the vibration of other people. There are many different degrees of clairsentience ranging from the perception of diseases of other people to the thoughts or emotions of other people. The ability differs from third eye in that this kind of ability cannot have a vivid picture in the mind. Instead, a very vivid feeling can form.

Psychometry is related to clairsentience. The word stems from psyche and metric, which means "to measure with the mind".

Clairaudience (hearing/listening)

In the field of parapsychology, clairaudience [from late 17th century French clair (clear) & audience (hearing)] is a form of extra-sensory perception wherein a person acquires information by paranormal auditory means. It is often considered to be a form of clairvoyance.^[20] Clairaudience is essentially the ability to hear in a paranormal manner, as opposed to paranormal seeing (clairvoyance) and feeling (clairsentience). Clairaudient people have psi-mediated hearing. Clairaudience may refer not to actual perception of sound, but may instead indicate impressions of the "inner mental ear" similar to the way many people think words without having auditory impressions. But it may also refer to actual perception of sounds such as voices, tones, or noises which are not apparent to other humans or to recording equipment. For instance, a clairaudient person might claim to hear the voices or thoughts of the spirits of persons who are deceased. Clairaudience may be positively distinguished from the voices heard by the mentally ill when it reveals information unavailable to the clairaudient person by normal means (including cold reading or other magic tricks), and thus may be termed "psychic" or paranormal.

Clairalience (smelling)

In the field of parapsychology, clairalience [presumably from late 17th century French clair (clear) & alience (smelling)] is a form of extra-sensory perception wherein a person acquires psychic knowledge primarily by means of smelling.^[21]

Claircognizance (knowing)

In the field of parapsychology, claircognizance [presumably from late 17th century French clair (clear) & cognizance (< ME cognisaunce < OFr conoissance, knowledge)] is a form of extra-sensory perception wherein a person acquires psychic knowledge primarily by means of intrinsic knowledge. It is the ability to know something without knowing how or why you know it.

Clairgustance (tasting)

In the field of parapsychology, clairgustance is defined as a form of extra-sensory perception that allegedly allows one to taste a substance without putting anything in one's mouth. It is claimed that those who possess this ability are able to perceive the essence of a substance from the spiritual or ethereal realms through taste.

(Sumber: en.wikipedia.org)

Confused? Well, it is confusing. Yet, by reading above. I could make the conclusion that I am Clairsentience. I am a very feeling person, and sometimes I know the personality of a person just merely by catching glimpse of his/her face. That's something, even though I study biology to an extent, that I couldn't explain.

The world is very interesting. Figures, coz the One who made it is VERY, VERY, INTERESTING. Thanks God, Your creation is simply OUTSTANDING!

Mid-semester Mess Up

Hey... Karena dibilang seseorang gw harus rajin" ngeblog, yah udah deh..

Today I'd like to talk bout my mid semester report. Gosh it's bad!

Hate it. -_-

I knew I could've done better, yet what's done is done.

Agama ulangan emang udah dua yah? Gw brasa baru satu deh... hmm....
PKN si ok.. no problem there XD
Inggris... so so.... susahnya jadi murid yang logikanya beda dengan gurunya. Hhhhh....
Indonesia.. wow startling XD
Math, 1 memuaskan, 1 menyedihkan...
Fisika, 1 salah masukin nilai (guru cacad), 1 lagi nilai remed gak dimasukin cacad"!!
Bio, should i even comment? XD
Kimia, it could've been SO MUCH BETTER. kenapa bisa jelek yah? Oh right... too many distractions...

OR, nilai aerobik yang biasa" saja.
Komputer, gurunya menyebalkan
Mandarin, slowly improving :D

Well, intinya gw gak puas ama nilai mid gw...... Tapi mau diapain lagi, yang lewat biar lewatlah.... Kalo dipikirin malah bikin kecewa. Gak boleh juga terlalu negatif, keep positive XD